Tôi và người ấy quen nhau vào mùa học cuối trên college. Năm đó tôi vừa tròn 20 và chàng...kém tôi 2 tuổi. Tình yêu học trò chúng tôi lúc đó thật là vô tư , hồn nhiên. Tuy mới 18 nhưng chàng đến với tôi với cả một tấm lòng chân thành - chàng lo lắng, chăm sóc cho tôi từ những chuyện nhỏ nhặt nhất. Nhưng rồi những sự ghen tuông, hờn giận của chàng đã dần dần đẩy tôi ngày càng xa chàng hơn...

Mới đây mà đã 3 năm rồi. Tôi đã gặp và quen một vài người nhưng những kỷ niệm xưa vẫn chưa hề phai. Trong cuộc sống có mấy ai thật sự hiểu mình....và chàng lại là một trong rất ít người đã hiểu được tôi nhiều nhất. Vì chàng mà tôi đã biết được thế nào là một "true love".

Chàng làm thơ, viết thư tình dễ dàng như người ta ăn bánh. Chàng nói là làm được nên tôi rất quý đều đó. Dưới đây là vài lá thư chàng viết tặng tôi trong những ngày tháng quen nhau...trong đó có lá thư cuối cùng lúc 2 đứa chia tay...

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To: xxx…my princess…

The greatest joy in my life is knowing you. You, a dream that I prayed to come true.
No…wait…the greatest joy is loving you…
Never once did I imagine it to be like this amazing. I love you so much, my heart is no longer my own. I give it to you willingly – so treasure it as I treasure you.
So then…the greatest joy in my life is actually you…just you
The love that you’ve shown me is beautiful and amazing. It’s like…watching the very first sunset. Or soaring through the clouds. Or gazing upon the stars at night.

Or all of these things put together….No, it’s more beautiful than that. But not as beautiful as you, not even close…

Dearest xxx,

(Best of luck on your quiz!)

Just thought I’d cheer you up with a little letter. You’re probably a bit too overwhelmed right now…but don’t forget to smile. When life gets tough, you have to get tougher. And you’re stronger than you think. Don’t be afraid to use that.
And if life gets too tough, I’m always there for you. As long as there is breath in me, you will never be alone. I’ll stand by you, holding your hand – even when our hands wrinkle with age.

And if life gets even tougher, then so be it. You give me so much strength that I can take on anything. You have become my inspiration – my reason for living. There’s you in everything I do – from waking to dreaming, there’s you. From thinking to breathing, there’s you. For every breath I take, there’s you. For you are my reason for everything.

I know that sometimes I promise a lot. But I only promise what I know I can give. So I can’t promise you the world – I can’t give you that. I was going to promise you MY world, but then I realized – YOU are my world…

You’ve come to mean so much to me…I mean it every time I say that I believe no one deserves to be loved and cared for more than you. And I’m honored to be one of the people who get the opportunity to do so. And I will dedicate my life – and whatever comes after (until the end of forever) – showing you just how much you deserve to be loved. And I hope that’s enough.

…Your soul is the very description of beauty and love defines itself through you…Anh yêu Em…

Yours now and forever,
Xxx

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Dearest xxx,

Hope you’re having at great day at work. It was pretty cool watching you bag with your hair tied back and a cute red apron on. So cute Everything you do, you do so amazingly. I’ll keep the bag and the receipt as mementos. I’ll let you have the snack though. I know you’re not too fond of sweets, but this is just in case you didn’t bring enough food and you get hungry. Speaking of which, you can call me on your break. I want to know how your first day is. Are the customers treating you nicely? How do you like it so far? If you don’t have time on your break though, then go ahead and just eat. I’ll just see you after work. If you have a little time, you can at least text me to let me know how you’re doing. Hope you’re taking care of yourself. Hope it’s not too cold or anything.

By the way, tomorrow is our three month anniversary. Pretty cool huh? Just think, three months ago, I was just the boy from your Statistics class who walks you to your car. And three months ago, you were the girl I was just starting to fall for. And here we are, three months later…no more Statistics class, no more walking to your car, but at least the boy’s still here. And he’s falling even deeper.

Happy three months, Em yêu!!!

Oh, and since I never got to give you the letter, congratulations on graduating. You’ve worked real hard towards that and I’m extremely proud of you. Seeing how hard you worked last semester – you did so great on your classes and I’m really proud of you. I’m really glad to have helped you, but really…What you’ve accomplished, you accomplished through your own strength. (I just helped you unlock that.) And I hope you carry that strength with you when you go to Cal State Long Beach. Well…maybe you can lend me some of that strength, because I know I will never be strong enough to withstand missing you. But seriously, good luck in Long Beach and I wish you the best. And I hope you keep me in your heart wherever you go.

And very belated Happy Birthday. I didn’t get you much, but I hope you like it anyway. See, for me, the best present I ever got was you. You came into my life on my 18th Birthday and made this whole year so beautiful and special. I just hope I can give you the same for your 21st year.

Because I love you. Funny how you can ask me any “why” questions about myself and that’ll be my answer. Like, “why did you come so early today?” Because I love you. “Why’d you drive back to my work after you already left?” Because I love you. “Why did you get me something called “Pocky”?” Because I love you and I want to make sure you don’t get hungry. “Why do you breathe?” Because I love you, and it’s easier to say that if I’m alive.

And I do love you. I care about you a lot and I hope it shows. And if you ever need anything, I’ll be there for you. I’ll never leave you. Because I love you.

I care too much about you to let you go. And right now, I’m missing you so much.
See, ever since the beginning of time, there has existed only nine truly beautiful things in this world. Our lives sine we’ve met, my love for you, your love for me, your heart, your mind, your body, and your soul (all of you). The ninth is us – this relationship has ben something so incredible for me and I want to thank you for showing me true love.

And in time, I believe we will only grow better and closer, and I’ll love you more despite the fact that I love you so much already. I’ll continue to love you coz I believe tat you do deserve a lot of love and happiness. And I hope (and it will be the greatest joy) to give you both – and more. I will give you my all, if that’s what it takes. Cos you know why?
…Because I love you.

With deepest love,
Xxx

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Dearest xxx…

My actions over the past few weeks have gone unexplained, and I’m sorry if I’ve acted irrational, heartless, and uncaring. I guess I should try to explain things before I go…

The reasons I suggested to stay as friends was because I wanted us to stay in each other’s lives. But after seeing you today ~ I realize that I would just mislead you, and in turn, mislead myself too – that something may in fact, happen between us again. Not that this isn’t my wish ~ in some other life or reality, this would perhaps be my greatest wish.

But remembering how unhappy you were when you were with me, I don’t know where your true happiness would actually lie. I saw you sad when you were with me, and I saw you sad when you weren’t. So it seemed to me that though you don’t wish to be alone, it wasn’t with me, with whom you really wished to be.
So if I seemed too calm ~ it was because at…some point, when you gave up on me, I gave up on myself. I gave up on the idea of us. Think of me as a clock running early…How I am expected me to react to your uncertainty of our relationship for the past two months. I’ve been dealing with this for the two months now, so I’ve had the time to adjust, accept our fate, calmly step aside, and take it. I’ve been fighting all this time…if you don’t like my being calm now, think of how I’ve been passionately fighting for this the past two months. But when I realized you weren’t actually willing to fight…I surrendered. I haven’t been heartless either. At least, I hope you don’t see it that way. Everything I chose to do, I chose to do in our best interests…Particularly yours. I wouldn’t want to do anything if I think it’s the best thing for you also. Imagine…if we did give this a try, would you not feel awkward? To be honest, I would be more conscious too…Wondering if we’re taking the right steps or if I’m doing the right things. Sometimes it’s hard to see what the right thing to do is. But if you believe you’re only going to be happy with someone of your own ethnicity, then yes, this is the right thing.

And I hope you don’t take too much of what I said earlier. When I said “I went to lunch with someone”, I just meant “in the company of” someone. It wasn’t a date. I think it might’ve come off that way. Yes, I did say that in the past, I dated people to comfort myself, but that is not the case now. I don’t plan on doing that. All I meant to say was, some people find it easier to deal with sorrow when they are left alone. I find it easier when I have company. I could not eat lunch on my own, so I asked whoever I could out of desperation. The thing that makes being alone hard, is being alone means being without you. So, I haven’t been uncaring either. I just can’t show, it would make you feel like you lost something more.

I just want this to be easier for you, but I hope you don’t take it to mean that this was not important to me at all. I have come to care for you a lot and I’m glad for everything that has transpired ~ despite the shortcomings our relationship has had. You have written the chapter of my life that has so far been the best chapter worth living…The truth, as spoken with all my heart, is that I do not regret a single moment of our past, and you’ve made my heart smile in ways no one else could This has bee amazing, and I would live through it again if I was given the chance.

Thank you.

I’m sorry if I’ve acted weirdly the past few weeks, but for every action there is a reason, and …well, you know what I said my reason for everything was. It is probably too late for that now, but that was the reason why I have been acting this way, and the reason why I made this decision in the first place. You said you want to be free ~ and now you are. Free to fly and find where your true happiness lies. And I hope you fly as high as the heavens. Good luck with everything. And take care of yourself…

Love,
XXX